My mind can't stop...it's been going a million miles a minute since 12:30 this afternoon when we found out we are having a baby GIRL.
I'm still not sure it's sunken in yet or that I believe it. For over 3 years we have wanted another baby and there has been a lot of waiting, let downs, losses, sadness and confusion along the way. I truly thought that my 3 boys were it and I became OK with that and happy with the way our family was. Of course there was always jealousy when a friend would announce they were pregnant...I'd wonder what was wrong with me that I couldn't have that final piece to my family puzzle but always celebrated with them and only wished the best. This year I really gave up; I'm turning 30, the boys are getting older and Dylan is starting Kindergarten. So when we found out I was pregnant I was in disbelief. Of course I was excited but it didn't seem real. To finally have that final missing puzzle piece we wanted so bad made everything PERFECT! I didn't really care at this point whether I had a girl or boy....of course I had hoped for a girl for so long and probably in the back of my mind I wanted it but I didn't expect it. Even after I was told it was a girl up until even now I'm not exactly getting excited because I don't know how to react. Of course I'm happy I just can't believe it's finally happening especially since this is our last baby.
So now my mind doesn't know where to start...there's so much to plan for. I know how to do boys I have no idea how to do girls! I don't even know how to change a girls diaper. This little girl is what our family needs right now.
She will have the best big brothers a little girl can ask for...she might get mad at them sometimes because they will be protective but she will be the center of all of their attention and never want for anything.
Her daddy is going to give her everything she wants all the time and make sure she feels like a princess always.
I can't wait to dress her up and play barbies with her, braid her hair, surprise her with special gifts just because, watch all the Disney princess movies with her, show her how to put on makeup when she's older, listen to all her secrets and hold her when she's sad...just like my mom did for me.
My life is complete!
We can't wait to meet you Adia Frances Marie Stout...your beautiful already!


